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Well, the catching up didn't last too long. We all had colds this past week and Colton and Calvin have ear infections (which reminds me that I forgot to give them their medicine before they went to bed). Carrera had a fever and a nasty runny nose and cough, but she is doing better.
I didn't have any daycare kids today so I went out for coffee at 9:00 a.m. I spent most of the time out planning daycare activities. I want to start doing some planned preschool activities with the kids. Colton had his preschool screening this week and Shane came home with loads of information about what Colton knows, doesn't know, and should know before kindergarten. Things like preschool screening make me think again about home-schooling. I really need to make time to research public-schooling and home-schooling. Calvin was very jealous that Colton got to go with daddy "preschooling," but Calvin's turn comes next week.
My mind has been on overload with my thoughts. Thoughts about friendship and religion mostly. I finally have decided to just take a little break from trying to figure everything out. Sometimes I need to accept that I am not going to just figure everything out right now. And actually I may never be able to figure the things out that I want to figure out.
I have been thinking a ton about friendship mostly because marriage and kids change how we spend our time. I used to spend all my free time with friends and now I don't have that free time. I spend a lot of time e-mailing "When can we get together?" I also tend to refer to people that I hung out with five to ten years ago as friends. If I haven't talked to someone in five years are they still my friend? It is hard for me to accept that the past is over and some of those friends are not my friends anymore. Its really very silly and I can't believe that I am letting it consume my thoughts the way that I do. I need to accept that I have limited time, and therefore have to have a limited number of friends. And perhaps it is okay if I use e-mail and MySpace to connect with people, even if I never get to get together with them outside of the computer. This all leads back to my question about roles (see previous post). What are my roles? Can I be a parent and have a social life? Is it okay for me to want to have a social life? Sigh.
It's almost midnight. This nocturnal babe has become a morning person. I am falling asleep on my knee typing. My brain still wants to be up at night, but my body is trained to be in bed by 10:00 p.m. Goodnight.
I didn't have any daycare kids today so I went out for coffee at 9:00 a.m. I spent most of the time out planning daycare activities. I want to start doing some planned preschool activities with the kids. Colton had his preschool screening this week and Shane came home with loads of information about what Colton knows, doesn't know, and should know before kindergarten. Things like preschool screening make me think again about home-schooling. I really need to make time to research public-schooling and home-schooling. Calvin was very jealous that Colton got to go with daddy "preschooling," but Calvin's turn comes next week.
My mind has been on overload with my thoughts. Thoughts about friendship and religion mostly. I finally have decided to just take a little break from trying to figure everything out. Sometimes I need to accept that I am not going to just figure everything out right now. And actually I may never be able to figure the things out that I want to figure out.
I have been thinking a ton about friendship mostly because marriage and kids change how we spend our time. I used to spend all my free time with friends and now I don't have that free time. I spend a lot of time e-mailing "When can we get together?" I also tend to refer to people that I hung out with five to ten years ago as friends. If I haven't talked to someone in five years are they still my friend? It is hard for me to accept that the past is over and some of those friends are not my friends anymore. Its really very silly and I can't believe that I am letting it consume my thoughts the way that I do. I need to accept that I have limited time, and therefore have to have a limited number of friends. And perhaps it is okay if I use e-mail and MySpace to connect with people, even if I never get to get together with them outside of the computer. This all leads back to my question about roles (see previous post). What are my roles? Can I be a parent and have a social life? Is it okay for me to want to have a social life? Sigh.
It's almost midnight. This nocturnal babe has become a morning person. I am falling asleep on my knee typing. My brain still wants to be up at night, but my body is trained to be in bed by 10:00 p.m. Goodnight.
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